Okay... So after LOTS of thought, I'm putting up photos of my breasts, done by Dr Ces Colagrande :o)

I've now had my new boobies for 3 months! :o)

I know I originally said that I didn't want to post photos of my breasts because I'm worried about being identified, and yes that could happen of course (let's hope not), but after a lot of thought I decided I wanted to post my pics.  My boobs are great and even though I can rave and rave about Dr Ces Colagrande work, the pics just prove exactly what I'm talking about, so here they are... :o)

So my first pic makes me cringe and smile all at once.  It's my before and after...  Beforehand, they were floppy, empty, deflated B cup, awful shaped saggy boobies, and I hated them.  The after pic here is exactly ONE WEEK post op.  You can see they're still swollen up top...

Below is a pic of me with the drains! :o)

Here I am at 2 weeks, swelling has pretty much gone now...

I felt wonderful at 2 weeks post op and took a nice photo.  The shape even at just 2 weeks is so nice and I feel like my new breasts make the whole contour of my body look better, I finally feel like a woman, rather than that with the body of a 12 year old, it's a nice feeling to feel better about how I look (next job, tone up that belly ;o)  hahaha!!!) :o)

3 weeks, they seem to be dropping/softening/changing somehow??  Lol...

I loved how they looked in my dress, haha!! (This is at 3 weeks post op) :o)

4 weeks post op...

 Here is a side on pic at 5 weeks :o)  Still lots of 'dropping and fluffing' to do...

6 weeks...  They're so symmetrical, very happy! :o)  I love them!!

This one is around 2 - 2 & 1/2 months (I think?  Lol...)

And here is now, at 3 months post op.  They look quite huge from this angle, but they are perfectly shaped, perfectly symmetrical, big like I wanted (in fact my bras are DD, aaaahhhhhh, that is so exciting!! No more buying B cup bras for ME!!!!  Yayyyy!!!)...  Haha!!  Can you tell I'm just a little bit excited about my boobies?? ;o)  But most of all, they are so natural looking already, at just 3 months post op...  They are everything I wanted.  I am so happy!!  Thank you again Dr Ces!!! :o)

I love, love, love my boobies.  Having your breasts done is one of those things that some people hate, and some people accept, but in the end it's a personal thing and something that can only be decided by you, and only you.  I did not have my breasts done for anyone else (meaning my husband), I got them done for me.  It was like my prize after breastfeeding my kids for all those years, and it is the best thing I have ever done for ME...  I feel wonderful, and I don't walk around flaunting them and having them hanging out for everyone to see like as though I am 18 years old.  But everything I wear now, just fits!  Everything looks nice, dresses are filled out the way they should be, and I feel like the whole contour of my body looks better.  It's wonderful to finally feel like a woman and not a woman with the body of a 12 year old, I am so, so, so happy!!  Oh, and like I said in one of my very first posts, my husband thought my boobs were fine beforehand and didn't think I needed to have them done, but he absolutely loves them, so that's definitely a nice thing too, haha!! :o)

Thanks for reading!

Love Sil xo

Overall Feelings about Breast Augmentation with Dr Ces Colagrande :o)

Hello lovelies!!

My boobs are one month old now and they are feeling and looking GREAT!! :o)

Today I've had my new boobies for 4 weeks (so pretty much a month).  This past week I have noticed the tops of them feeling softer and slightly squishier, which is nice :o)  There is no pain at all and I'm sleeping comfortably every night.  I'm still sleeping on my back because I don't feel comfortable enough yet to sleep on my side (I worry too much about wrecking them while they're still so new, haha!!).

They no longer feel so hard on my chest, before I was always very aware of them, like I knew they were there, could FEEL them all the time, just aware of them...  But now, they no longer feel hard on me (unless I actually touch them, they still feel hard/stiff to touch) but on my body as I walk around about my day they just feel like a normal part of my body now, like an arm or a leg, they feel part of me :o)

My incisions look amazing, they are practically healed already!!  Hugest difference between the skills of a general surgeon at a hospital performing caesarians, to the skills of a wonderful plastic surgeon, I can't believe how good my incisions are :o)  My caesarian scar is 3 and a half years old now and is still red and ugly (I hate my caesarian scar, if it didn't have to be another surgery I would definitely get it fixed, but anyway, at least it gave me my beautiful baby girl :o)  I have feeling back now on the undersides of my boobs and the incisions don't hurt at all.  They only get tender if I hang clothes on the line or something like that, (the stretching of my arms to hang the clothes up, plus I'm a shorty so I'm always on my tippie toes hanging clothes up, hahaha!!!) but the tenderness passes quickly afterwards, it only lasts a few minutes :o)

Anyway, all in all, it has been a WONDERFUL experience, I cannot recommend Dr Ces Colagrande enough, like highly, highly, highly recommend him.  He is a very professional, lovely mannered man with so much empathy and compassion, he is easy to talk too and makes you feel so comfortable.  He is the kind of person who can connect with anyone and makes whoever he is talking to feel comfortable and safe, I have spoken to MANY other very happy patients of Dr Ces since my breasts were done and they all say this :o)  To me he has put a lot of work into making his clinic and the work he does just perfect. Even down to the decorating of his waiting room, you can see he puts thought into everything he does and runs his business so well, his professionalism is astounding and I could honestly rave and rave about him. Very happy boogie girl right here! Hahaha!!!

Anyway ladies, if you're looking at having your breasts done, you must consider Dr Ces, as soon as you meet him you will instantly like him, and the best thing about him is he really listens to what you are wishing to achieve and makes sure he gives you exactly the result you're looking for that is the safest and best option for you.  He talks through everything, takes his time and makes sure the result is perfect.  Honestly I've heard him being referred to as a perfectionist before (and even he tells you he is a perfectionist when it comes to his work) and it is so very true, he really is, and he has a lot of pride in what he does. You will definitely love your results and the fabulous aftercare as well.

I have had a fabulous experience and couldn't be happier.  I feel pretty and womanly now for the first time in my life!  I took photos of myself one night in lingerie to send to my husband and looked at the picture for ages.  With my new breasts my body has a lovely contour now and I feel sexy and attractive for the first time EVER!!!!  I know it's just boobs, but seriously my confidence is 1000% now, I can't explain how happy I am.  Every piece of clothing I put on just looks good, without any effort, the clothes sit properly and my cleavage always looks amazing..  The best thing about it all though, is that my boobies look like mine, they do not look fake or obvious and round.  They just look like a fantastic set of boobs that are perfect size and shape for my body.  I am SO happy!

So... Dr Ces Colagrande... If you ever come across this HUGE blog of mine about my wonderful journey, I can't say enough how much I THANK YOU for your wonderful skills and for making my dream come true!  Thank you for becoming the wonderful surgeon you are because I wouldn't want them done by anyone else.  Thank you for making me feel pretty, attractive and womanly, FINALLY!  Thank you for listening to what I wanted to achieve and doing just that.  Thank you for your fabulous and attentive aftercare, for your compassion when I was full of nerves and the wonderful chats and laughs we've had during our conversations.  Thank you for taking the time to always call me back and answer even the silliest of questions.  You're a fantastic surgeon Dr Ces, you should be so proud of how skilled you are, what you have achieved with your life and with what you do for so many people, in changing the feelings and even the lives of so many for the better, congratulations on a job well done, and once again... thank you, thank you, THANK YOU SO MUCH!! :o)

Well, I'd say I'll pop on here and write a 3 month or 6 month post when it comes to that.  Actually I probably will when I go bra shopping and find out what size I am, haha!!  I am VERY excited to buy bras so I'll probably want to ramble all about it, Hahaha!!! :o)

So I'll 'see' you all around again soon :o)  Thanks again for following my journey!

Love and hugs

Sil xoxo

My Boobies Are Two Weeks Old :o)

Hi!!!

My boobies are now 2 weeks old and are healing REALLY well :o)

This past week (since the drains came out on Friday before we flew home) has been getting better every day.  I'm so happy!!  My incisions feel numb, which is fantastic!  I'm glad I can't feel the stitches, lol...  I get a funny sort of 'buzzing' feeling I guess you'd call it every now and then, but nothing ever hurts.  Dr Ces did say he cuts through a main nerve there underneath the breasts so my boobs will be numb for a while I think.  The buzzing is probably the healing :o)  I can't wait to find out what size I am!!!!  Dr Ces put me in a size D surgical bra so I wonder if that's what I am??  It will be so exciting when I can go bra shopping!!!! SQUEEL!!! :o)

It's funny when I was showering the first few days after having the drains out, I would sort of hold one arm underneath my boobs as I washed myself with my other hand, because they felt SO strange!  LOL!!!  It must be the new weight of my boobs combined with the weird numb feeling on the underside of them, plus the tight feeling of them, all rolled into one.  Haha!!  On the morning of my first shower after we'd got back from Dr Ces office my hubby was laughing at me because I was sort of 'holding them' with my hands because they felt funny to let go, hehehe...  He jokingly said to me "what.... are you worried the implants are going to fall out through your incisions or something?" hahaha!!! and then continued with, "hmmm... Maybe you're just liking the excuse to hold them..."  LOL!!!  Smarty pants!! ;o)

Anyway, it is the BEST feeling being home with my three beautiful daughters.  I missed them SO SO SO much!  Although it's weird not picking up my 3 year old, she's my last baby so I tend to always pick her up and walk around with her on my hip.  I'm missing the feeling of her sweet little chubbiness in my arms, haha!! :o)

So the only discomfort I have had is when I wake up in the mornings.  It's like I have to use my tummy muscles and count to three, and then sit up while holding my breath, hahaha!!!  My boobs get very hard and stiff after I've slept all night, so I wake up with them feeling like an intense pressure, but as soon as I sit up I sort of go "ahhhh..." and they feel fine, lol...  That's the only discomfort I have had.  Oh, and driving my car actually!  I didn't expect it, so I hopped in the car on Monday after we'd flown home over the weekend and took the kids to school....  Well I drive a manual car (I have a thing for manual and hate automatics, yes I know I'm strange, lol...!!! ;o) but this was the first time I've ever wished I had an automatic because going from 1st through to 4th gear was fine, but trying to move the gear stick into 5th or 6th gear was out of the question, it made my left boob feel SO weird to move the gear stick that way, it's like I could feel the muscle moving against the implant or something and I couldn't do it, so I had to drive my car screaming up the highway in 4th gear (sorry car, lol...).  Also, when moving the gear stick into reverse I had to use both hands, but I could do it so that was okay, lol...  Anyway, hubby moved his work around (lucky he's the boss) and did all the school drop offs and pick ups for me this past week, sweetheart he is.  Seriously he's so supportive, I love him so much!!!!! :o)

So that's been my past week.  My boobs look amazing, the swelling has come down completely now and I LOVE LOVE LOVE them!!!! :o)  They are symmetrical, nipples symettircal too, such a gorgeous shape and they're the PERFECT size, did I say I'm SO happy?? ;o)  Haha!!  Dr Ces called as soon as we'd arrived back home to see how I'd travelled, I didn't expect that so it was really kind.  And he has called through the week again too.  I've also called him with a question and left a message and he's called back later that afternoon only too happy to talk to me.  He is such a busy man but he has this way of making you feel like he has all the time in the world for you, so you don't feel like you're being an inconvenience, he's just been amazing, 5 out of 5 stars all the way for this wonderful surgeon :o)

Anyway, time to go!  PS...  I was planning on putting photos up without my face in them but I'm so sorry, I just don't feel comfortable putting photos of my boobies up on the Internet, I am too worried about somebody putting two and two together, realising it's me even though my face isn't in the photos and it bites me in the butt later on down the track when I'm going for a job interview or something like that.  I don't think potential employers later on down the road would be too impressed with me putting photos of my boobs on the Internet for all the world to see, so I'm very sorry, you'll just have to trust my writing in this blog and the photos on Dr Ces beautiful website to believe that my boobs look AMAZING!!!  In fact, I have to say, I feel like my boobs look better than any of the girls even on his website, hehehe...  See?  Very happy girl right here!! LOL!!! :o)

Love from happy boobie girl Sil :o) xoxo

The Drains Are Out!!! YAY!!! :o)

Hi Lovelies!!

Well I am very happy today, the drains came out, woohoo!! :o)

My boobs were sitting high up on my chest the first few days but now they have come down a lot and my left boob has gone down heaps too, it was much more swollen and bigger than my right for the first few days, now they look more even :o)

How is this?  800mls out of EACH boob came out in my drain bags!!!  That's AMAZING!!!  I am SO glad Dr Ces used drains on me because imagine how much swelling I would have had otherwise and how long it would have taken to come down with my body having to absorb all that and deal with the swelling itself?  I'm so happy.  I have felt on top of the world ALL day today! :o)  Because the swelling has gone down so much I didn't have to feel like Dolly Parton walking around at the shops today ;o)  hahaha!!!  Seriously, as restrictive as the drains were carrying them around and having them constantly 'being' there, they were the best thing, I'm so glad :o)

I have so much less retriction now and move much easier since the drains came out.  It's like a 'lighter' feeling (probably all in my head ;o) haha!!).  My boobs feel tight but no pain at all.  I feel SO happy right now!!

There was a tiny sting when Dr Ces took each of the drains out but literally for like half a second.  He checked my incisions and put new dressings on, and also gave me a bunch of dressings to take home with me and change them every second day.  Once they are all used up he said to use unscented panty liners just to stop any irritation caused by the bras I wear :o)

Anyway, after the consultation we went back to the hotel and I finally had a shower, ahhhhh... That was so nice!!  My hubby helped me wash my hair because I still can't lift my arms that much, they feel too restricted to do that.  It felt great to feel squeeky clean again, no more wipes and sponge baths with face washers, yay!!  Haha!!  I got dressed and we went shopping, out for lunch and walked around Broadbeach for the day (I love Broadbeach, if we move down here eventually, I'd love to live in Broadbeach, Biggera Waters sort of area, so gorgeous!).  I felt on top of the world walking around the shops today.   JUST SO HAPPY!!!!! :o) :o) :o)  We bought more pressies for our girls and things for ourselves as well, my hubby is always spoiling me, such a lucky girl :o)  Lol...  I feel so happy and blessed :o)

Every time I walked past a mirror this afternoon in the motel I have looked at my boobs, I just can't believe it, THEY ARE AWESOME!!!!!  Hahahaha!!!!!  My hubby said to me at one stage "are you looking at your boobs again?"  as he listens to the clicking of my iPhone with all the photos I was taking, hehehe...  I sent photos to my closest girlfriends and my sister, just happy, happy, happy!!!!! :o)

Tonight I got dressed up and we went out for dinner at a lovely little restaurant in Broadbeach that I think was called 'Lust'.  There were a few restaurants in a row and we were walking along reading the menus at each when the chef himself came out and greeted us at that one, he was really lovely, so we dined there and the food was beautiful, especially the scallops I had for entree, delicious!  I felt amazing with my new cleavage and noticed the chef have a peek when he was talking to us...  You know what, I've never had that before, and to be honest it was a great feeling, I couldn't stop smiling ALL day today!!  Haha!!

Anyway, we fly home to our princesses tomorrow and I am SO ready for it.  I CANNOT WAIT to cuddle my babies!!!!!!!

This whole week has been a fabulous experience, my boobies look amazing and the care I have received from Dr Ces Colagrande during this whole thing has been amazing, he has just blown me away with his professionalism and care.  He called me every day to check up on me, answered any questions I had, talked about what things I could expect to feel etc, he was just fantastic.  One of the things that really impressed my husband was at the post-op consult this morning when we were saying goodbye and Dr Ces said to me "now remember, I'm not just your doctor who gave you implants and sent you on your way, I am your doctor now for life" what a thing to say!!  We are both so impressed :o)

Well, time for sleep now.  We've already packed up our stuff ready to leave in the morning, in between me constantly looking at my boobs in the mirror of course, hahahahaha!!!!! ;o)

Thanks for following my journey so far, this has been such a wonderful experience for me.

Talk soon lovelies, I'll blog each week or something to write about how they are going while they heal :o)

Love from a very happy Sil xo

Feeling much better today and loving my boobies!! :o)

Hi!!

So yesterday was a hard day, I was tired and sore but today I'm feeling good :o)

Dr Ces called about 7:30 on the first night, and he called yesterday and tonight too which is really great.  It's nice to know that he'll call each day if I end up with any concerns or questions :o)

I slept better last night and I'm getting use to the drains.  I have been given a floral beach bag looking thing to put the drain bags in and carry around with me.  I just put the bag on the floor beside the bed at night and make sure the drains are laying out beside me and down into the bag over the edge of the bed, the hoses for the drains are really long so it's good that you've got plenty of hose to work with and there's no pulling or anything.

I would describe the feeling I have as that feeling that mother's who have breastfed would understand.  It's that feeling when your breasts get really engorged because they are so full of milk, but double the feeling, like as though you haven't fed the baby in a good few days or something, haha!!  Actually, come to think of it, it's that same engorged feeling on the day your milk comes in after having your baby, not fun but it's nothing that isn't tolerable.  It would be crazy to think there isn't going to be discomfort after having surgery and having this foreign thing put inside your body.  My body needs to get use to this new thing and my skin has to relax over it too, so considering, the discomfort isn't too bad :o)

More then anything, the compression bra is very tight, that's the most annoying thing.  I asked Dr Ces tonight if I could loosen my compression bra by one notch, which he said was fine.  I have a wide rib cage so my bra is tighter on me than it probably would be on others.  It's amazing how that little bit of relief could feel so good, lol...  I'm feeling so much better tonight and felt good today too :o)

I did a crazy thing late yesterday afternoon (Tuesday, the day after surgery).  I was SO tired and decided I just needed to sleep.  Being propped up on pillows was annoying me and I couldn't sleep so I got rid of them and slept with just two pillows behind my head, so I was flat on my back.  Anyway I fell asleep straight away for a solid hour, like a really deep solid sleep, but when I woke up I felt like my boobs were on fire, the pressure was SO intense like they would explode, and I was so stiff I could NOT get up.  I yelled out to my husband and he came in and put his hands behind my back to lift me up and soon as I was sitting up the pain was gone instantly.  It was so weird, I must have really relaxed when I was sleeping and ended up very stiff.  It was such an intense pressure I could have nearly cried and then as soon as they were hanging again when I sat up, I felt good again, strangest thing!  So last night I made sure to stay propped up on pillows and I was fine, haha!!  I guess I shouldn't have laid flat on my back like that just 1 day after surgery, silly girl, lol... :o)

I can't wait to actually SEE my boobies, Friday will be a very exciting day! :o)

Well, all in all, a great day today!  Considering I only had surgery 2 days ago, I have felt really good :o)

Talk again soon!

Sil xo

The Day After Surgery... :o)

Hello again!

I had my boobs done yesterday, wow!  I still can't believe it has finally happened :o)

I didn't get much sleep at all last night.  As soon as I would fall asleep I'd wake up again.  I kept getting really stiff from sleeping in the same position on my back propped up with heaps of pillows.  I got up at about 4am and walked around the apartment for a bit because I felt like I needed to stretch my legs and my boobs felt quite hard and stiff when I woke up (I think from laying back and they would sort of settle on my chest and I would feel this intense pressure after a while) so when I would walk around and they were hanging on my chest again they instantly felt better.

They feel pretty good this morning, definitely tight and stiff of course, like lots of pressure but it's not so much pain, it's just this tightness.  They are a little sore on top in my cleavage area and also the round sides of each of my boobs heading toward my armpits.  I have absolutely no pain at all where my incisions are which surprised me, that's where I was cut so I thought that would be sore but the bottom halves of my boobs are numb at the moment, so that's definitely a good thing :o)  So yes, I'm sore but it's more stiffness, pressure, tightness, whatever you'd call it, and my back is sore from holding myself so stiffly I think, and I keep hunching so I'm trying to remind myself to stand with my shoulders back, lol..

My breasts are so swollen (which is to be expected of course), I feel like I can feel exactly where the implants are at the moment when I feel my breasts with my hands, and my skin is so shiny from being stretched over them.  It's all very interesting actually, lol.. :o)  My left boob is bigger than my right at the moment because it has more swelling.  The drains feel a bit restrictive but I'm glad they are there, they should definitely help bring the swelling down a lot.  During these first 24 hours , I've had about 300mls come out of each boob already, a lot of the stuff was Betadine at first because Dr Ces dips the implants in it before putting them in so that's a good thing for infection.  It looked like blood at first, haha!!  But the nurses told us yesterday it was Betadine, phew! hahaha!!! ;o)

What has surprised me is how useless my arms are.  It's like my elbows are permanently stuck at my sides, haha!!  The nurse did tell me to leave my elbows at my sides anyway, so I'm definitely doing that without even trying!  LOL!!!  I can't stretch my arms out or anything to reach for things and for the first 24 hours my hubby had to pull my knickers up and down for me went I went to the loo, hahaha!!!  ;o)

I have to keep my surgical bra on permanently and I'm not allowed to shower until Friday when the drains come out.  So I've wiped myself over with baby wipes and then I stood in a shallow bath while my hubby sponge bathed me with a face washer, that felt good actually, nice to feel clean :o)  I am taking my antibiotics which I forgot to mention I started the day before surgery, I have 4 a day and they make sure your body doesn't reject the implants.  The pain relief I am taking is called Digesic, it doesn't take the pain away but it lessens it a little.  I think it's good to feel some pain anyway, otherwise I might try to do too much because I'll think I can and then only postpone the healing or hurt myself.  What I'm feeling is tolerable, I'm just SO tired...  I think I'll feel better once I catch up on some sleep.

By the way, my husband is being amazing and so attentive.  I love him :o)

Well, I'm very tired so I think I will go and try to sleep...

Sil xo

I have BOOBIES!!!!!! :o) :o) :o)

Hello lovelies!!

Well, I am now a lady with boobies!!!!!! :o)

I'm surprised how good I feel tonight! :o)  I decided to write this straight away, while it's all fresh on my mind.  I think I am feeling pretty groggy though so hopefully I remember everything, I'll go back over this post in a few days and edit any bits I've missed (and I'm sure my spelling will be woeful too, apologies in advance if I don't make any sense! LOL!!!)

***Yes, I have been back and edited since, I wrote some words and even a whole sentence TWICE!!  Hahahaha!!!!  I was definitely feeling groggy that night :o) ***

So, I was surprisingly calm ALL morning!  I washed my hair and shaved my legs because I know I won't be able too for a good few days.  I didn't feel nervous this morning, just... weird??  Lol...  That's all that I can describe the feeling like.  So yes, nervous obviously but it didn't feel like nerves to me at the time.  My hubby said I was being really quiet though, lol...  Oh and how sweet is he?  He got up before me and snuck out to have coffee and breakfast really quietly because he knew that I wasn't allowed to have anything to eat or drink so he didn't want to do it in front of me, he's so sweet :o)

We drove too the Southport Day Hospital an hour before my surgery time and my husband and I waited to be called in, my tummy was flipping a little at this stage.  The administration lady came and took my medical forms that I had filled out to get photocopies of it and my medicare card too while we were in the waiting room.  When I got called in, the nurse said that was as far as my husband could go so I had to say goodbye to him.  He looked a bit nervous about that the poor thing, lol...  Actually I think he was more nervous than me at the time! :o)  I felt okay saying goodbye to him but I really wished he could have stayed longer.

Anyway, a nurse took me into a little room and first talked to me about the whole procedure, explaining what would happen step by step, and then she got me to dress in a hospital gown, stockings, booties and a hat to cover my hair.  She checked that I was wearing cotton knickers (which I had made sure I did), otherwise she would have given me paper knickers to wear apparently (I wonder why you have to wear cotton knickers anyway??).  She then gave me a big white robe to wear over everything so that was good :o)  I was cold in there (or maybe it was nerves?) so I really liked the robe to keep me warm, and to hide the funny looking hospital gown ;o) 

Once I was dressed the nurse took my blood pressure and went through my forms with me, made me state my name, date of birth, what I was there for etc, and then she left the room and a few minutes later the anaesthetist came in.  The anaesthetist asked all about my Asthma that I had mentioned I have on my medical form, and listened to my chest to make sure I didn't have any congestion or anything, and she talked me through what to expect with the general.  She also went through all my medical forms again and confirmed everything like the first nurse did.

Finally, it was Dr Ces turn.  He  came into the room with a great big smile and greeted me cheerfully.  I think he must have been able to tell I was nervous because he was speaking very comforting toward me and chatted away to ease my nerves.  He tried the surgical bra on me to make sure it was going to fit and then took his time drawing his marks on my breasts to make sure he had it all right.  Then he spoke reassuringly to me before walking with me into the operating theatre.  This part felt so weird when I walked in there, like a dreamilike experience I think, was this really happening??  Haha!!  I could see all these nurses, Dr Ces, instruments and the big light above the operating table, it was soooo weird, lol...

I'll say right here actually that everybody at the Southport Day Hospital Including Dr Ces were wonderful, they were the friendliest, most comforting doctor and nurses I have ever had experience with.  I've had caesarians with my kids and I can say 100% that I have never had care like the care I received today at this hospital.  They were all very reassuring and attentive, smiley, friendly, and told little jokes to ease my nerves.  COMFORTING is the word I want to use here, because I was pretty anxious and they smiled non stop and said all the right things to comfort me.  They were just fantastic!  Biggest difference to the care I've received when I had my babies that's for sure!

Anyway, I walked into this big scary looking room (well not really 'scary', just a very "this is an operating room, and I'm about to use a scalpel on you" looking room... no pressure ;o) hahahahaha!!!!!)  I hopped onto this beautifully warm, snuggly operating table.  They had heated it up and it was nice and warm and calmed me down lots!  Just what I needed.  From there everything happened very fast.  All the nurses started putting things on me and worked very quickly while the anaesthetist put the needle in the top of my hand.  She did it in a very clever way actually (because no one likes needles) and while the nurses were sticking little electrodes (or whatever they were) to my back and stuff, the anaesthetist fussed with my hand and then said "just a little sting" before popping the needle in.  I actually don't remember the sting, so I think because there was so much happening at once I didn't really focus on the needle like I otherwise would have.

Right before I was given the anaesthesia Dr Ces appeared beside me and put his hand reassuringly on my cheek.  He looked straight into my eyes and said, "everything will go just fine, I will go and scrub up now and I'll see you when you wake up" with a big warming smile.  How nice is that?  I think a reassuring little sentence like that was just what I needed at this scary time.  The last thing I remember before being knocked out is looking at the ceiling and thinking "wow I feel drunk" because the ceiling was moving around, hahaha!!!  Then a nurse said "we'll just give you some oxygen" and I saw the mask coming toward my face, and boom, that was it, I was out like a light :o)

Next thing, I woke up in recovery with two nurses standing on each side of my bed.  I felt like I had woken up from a long night's sleep and for a second I forgot where I was.  I sort of looked at the nurses and then thought "oh that's right!  I've just had my boobs done!" hahaha!!!  I lifted the blanket and looked down, and even though my boobs were in the surgical bra, I could see the bulging of them and liked what I saw, yay!!!  :o)  I wasn't in any pain surprisingly, my chest felt very heavy that's all, like a really tight and swollen feeling, and I felt like I needed to breathe very deeply because my chest was so tight.  My throat and lips were SO dry and I had a sore throat, so the nurses gave me water to sip through a straw and chatted to me a lot as I woke up more.  I was REALLY groggy and tired.

Dr Ces told me that I freaked out a little bit when I was coming out of the anaesthetic and I tried to sit up and get off the operating table, hahaha!!!  Apparently I tried to push the nurses away too and they had to force me to lay down again.  Oops, sorry Dr Ces and nurses :o}  Hahaha!!!  ;o)  I guess all my anxiety (and handling my nerves so surprisingly well leading up to it) must have got too much and I must have felt disoriented or something and panicked.  I don't remember ANY of it though.  Definitely feel embarrassed, lol... I wish I was a fly on the wall to see what I did!  LOL!!!  How embarrassing though!! :o)

I can't remember too much in those first moments but after a while they got me to walk over and sit in a chair nearby and then gave me something to eat and drink.  Some apple juice, and some crackers and cheese.  After a little while, my hubby turned up and Dr Ces came in to check on me and check my incisions.  By then I felt drowsy but more awake.  I chatted a bit with the nurses and Dr Ces before a nurse showed my hubby how to empty the drains and then took me in a wheelchair down to our car to go back to the motel.  Everybody was just wonderful today! :o)

Back at the hotel this afternoon I have felt pretty 'drunk' I guess you could describe it as, and tired.  My poor hubby said he was stressing the whole time he was waiting back at the hotel for me, I think I was gone for about 5-6 hours all up?  He said he sat there mindlessly watching the TV and did absolutely nothing but wait for that phone to ring and hoped that I was okay... Love him to pieces :o)  Right now my back hurts a little but I think that is because I am so stiff and the compression bra is SO tight.  I've had a coffee since I got back and something small to eat, I really didn't feel like eating that much.  My boobs look SO swollen and I am starting to feel pretty sore now so I think I'll go and try to sleep for a bit, feeling so tired right now :o)

What a day, I can't believe I got my boobs done, this is all so surreal, lol... :o)

Lots of love
Sil xoxo